Insomnia :
Well, I’ll TRY not to make this too long but here goes,
Insomnia
Well, I’m moving this summer away from all of my friends, including the best friend I ever had. I found out about the move about a month or two before school was over, and I told everyone, and of course the first person I called was my best friend, and she seemed really uninterested. During school she made it a point to not meet up whenever or whereever we always meet up. During lunch she wouldnt take to me, and later on she said, "yeah, it sucks that your moving, I’m trying to talk to others now so I won’t miss you." And that kind of stung cause I was hoping to spend as much time with her as possible.
Then there’s my other friend. We got into a fight, and we made up, but later on I found out that during the fight she imed a bunch of our mutual friends complaining about it and how it was COMPLETELY my fault and said that I did certain things that I didn’t, etc. I figured she was just releasing her anger, and explained to them later, which I thought was okay. But later I found out she told everyone that she just forgave me and apologized even though she didnt have to and that she was the better person and she hardly told anyone about it, etc. This also stung because I know that its not true. And were still really good friends now, but idk if I trust her.
And then, my relationship with my mom. This past year it was just her and me since my dads been working overseas. Our relationship is HORRIBLE. We never talk, we never CAN talk, we always end up getting in fights, and she constantly puts me down and tells me how she cant stand me and how it’s like I’m trying to give her a heart attack.
Now, its summer. I feel like I can’t trust ANYONE, and honestly I don’t want to because I know theyre just going to lose my trust in the end, so I figure what’s the point. I don’t really want to hang out with anyone because I feel like they won’t care when I leave so again, what’s the point? I honestly couldn’t care less about anything, and I’m slowly becoming an insomniac. I don’t what to do and I don’t want to talk to people I know about it cause I feel like I’m just becoming a nuisance at this point. I’m not expecting solutions, just a little advice.
Thanks(:
Oh, and my ‘best friend’ already found someone new to replace me with.
and I’ve been to the place I’m going to move to, it’s AWFUL
Insomnia
wow that seems real close to home with me.. basicly the same things im going thru. that is shocking that your friend just kind of left you but maybe thats her way of dealing with you moving she doesnt want to be with out a best friend i hanve no idea people have strange ways of getting thru things
:) i hope things get better for ya
the thing with your mom .. i have the same relationship with her. i found out that if you help around the house like clean the bathroom or do the dishes it puts her in a bit of a better mood with your dad gone she might be depressed or stressed out try to make little conversations with her like hows your day what did you do ect. or do things with her like watch a movie ( no talking involved) you mom is a big part of your life family is important.
trust is a big thing ive lost a friend or two from not being trustworthy i dont know much about making new friends ina new area cuz ive lived in the same place all my life… but i know you dont need a milion friends to be happy so if you can find at least one person u like and can hang out with im pretty sure they might have other friends you can hang out with and soon you cud have a few friends ahah i donno
i really hope this helped
dont stress. even when God feels distant. hes not. hes always there and open for you to hand over your worries. open your eyes an say a prayer. seek him and he will fill all your needs. just try it. and i garuntee you. this, will be the best awnser.
Dont worry too much, I think i can relate to you!
Honestly if your "best friend" treats you like that she probably isn’t a nice person for you to be with.
Go into this new place you are moving to with an open mind, because i find the people who you dont acknowledge that much in the beginning , are usually the ones you end up being really close to in the end
Oh and to help cheer you up, go hug someone! Maybe your mum, because remember you only ever get one, no matter how much goes wrong between you. A hug is like a handshake from the heart! <3
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